Saturday, 28 August 2010

It Hurts So Bad...

Have you ever felt so much pain that tears just kept streaming down your cheeks even when you try so hard to keep them in? I debated about sharing this, but decided to do so anyway.

Last night, I found out something that would have been better hidden away forever. I already know about Sayang's past, but why does the little details still hurt so badly? I mean, I had already knew what I could probably face, when I chose not to walk away after he told me about his past, but I didn't expect it to be so painful. I shouldn't have looked it up, I should have known better than that. Now that I know, and there seemed to be more than what I had originally thought was a number special to only both of us, I can't help feeling hurt. I really hope it's just a coincidence. Sayang doesn't know what I have discovered yet. I keep telling myself that I can bear with it, that I will pretend that nothing happened so that I won't worry him.

The truth is, I really need him to be with me right now, to ease away my pain and tell me that it's all gonna be okay...


  1. Steph! this is 3 days late but are you feeling better now? i know how painful these kinda stuff can be and if you need a listening ear,I'm here alright? I'll pray for you too! :)

  2. Ditto! I know I'm a bit late but I really hope everything is okay! I'm only an email away! :)


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