I'm watching the recorded version of 'Singapore Idol'. This season's contestants are so young this time and I must admit, the females are much more outstanding as compared to previous seasons. This episode is so emotional to watch, got me teary-eyed at so many points. Charlene and how she's so in this for her mum, Kelly Mae on how she came all the way back to Singapore without her husband just for this, and how Gabriel was comforted by his brother when he was eliminated - the strong bond shared between the brothers, how they cried along with each other. All these, really reminds me of how important family and friends are, not only there to laugh along with you, but also, to cry along with you, to lend you a shoulder to cry on. I sound so emo now..:P

I can't wait for HIM to appear before me, I'm gonna wait faithfully though, God has His own plans and His own perfect time. :)

I'm kinda feeling numb now, a little drained out. I'm going through the phase of ' I just want to study full-time' and quit working. Plus, I have been experiencing some unhappiness at work. Unquestionable, I love the kids and I do wanna see them grow, from a level to another level. Just that, I'm rather upset with how the supervisor corrects me in from of my own students during lesson time, in a chiding manner. I wish she would speak to me with respect, like I'm an adult instead of that tone she used, when she's scolding the kids. I keep thinking if I am 10 years older than now, she would probably not speak to me in that manner. People are telling me to talk to her about it, and I'm trying to find courage to do so, because, I've never been the confrontational kind of person. I rather let it go or keep everything inside of me. I hope things will get better. My parents discussed and they are giving me an option of quitting to concentrate on my studies, my dad's unhappy with how the supervisor's treating me as well. Don't get me wrong, she's not a witch. I just think maybe she's so used to speaking to kids in a certain manner that she used it on me too. Seriously, I teared on Friday cos' I was so upset that she corrected me 3 times in 2 periods, right in front of my kids, with that kinda tone.

I'm trying to sort out my feelings, whether I wanna quit soon or hang in there, whether I am able to live with no allowance and having to let my parents pay for my education. I need time to think....

On another note, I've decided to take a leap of faith and save up for the 'Shalom Israel Study Tour' that the church's organising. I realised that I've always pushed away thoughts of going to such trips because I assumed that my parents wouldn't agree and I will not have enough money to go. I should not be thinking of that, I should just trust in God to provide instead of relying on my own strengths and means. So this time, I just wanna trust in Him, that He will make it happen if it's meant to be. :)

I'm still waiting for my attachment! Please Lord, let it be approved really soon!

So, I've been very busy with work, volunteering and all that. I'm loving my job, learning a lot, like how to change a soiled diapers, washing the fans and all that stuff. I'm totally on my road to motherhood. Hahaha! Well, I think I'm already loving all my kids, I miss them when I don't go to work. Haha. Not all of them, I suppose, but I already have got favourites! :)

Anyway, just got back from BBQ with the set-up crew. I feel so blessed to be serving in the same ministry as them. It was a nice cosy dinner and I had a great time, getting to know more about each individual. It was good bonding time. You know, each time I feel like I can't carry on serving in the ministry, I will be reminded of all of them, how I've slowly opened up to them and hanging out together, even more so now. I know that I can't leave the ministry without feeling a loss. So yeah, I'm gonna keep doing this, for God's glory and for our friendship.;D

I also managed to catch up with MIN today! We went to catch 'Fighting' tonight and had a nice chat. There was a sense of warmth in that meeting, and I like how we can hang out together as friends, chatting freely, without worrying about anything. I feel really blessed to have him as a friend. Of course, it would have been better if Khalis can make it today. BUT, I'm not complaining!

A great day...great company, great movie (I MEAN CHANNING TATUM!), great food...Totally blessed! :D