Min's Passing Out Parade~!

trying to entertain ourselves while waiting for parade to start...

The Formed Up Squad : 41st Batch

The Salute

pledge of officers...

donning of rank...

and the boys are FREE!

surrounded by paparazzi lookalikes,the boys felt like celebrities kan..

our proud to-be-Officer..:)

And so, our playful and monkey-like Min has finally matured into a grown up man. He endured all the exhausting and challenging training and emerged as an OFFICER..congratuations! woohoo~! So proud of him..:)

I can't explain this feeling that's within me, but I'm excited..truly excited for what's gonna happen in my life. Into my third day of fasting, I'm starting to see and feel hope, for the future, that I'm gonna enjoy and embrace it.

****I'm excited for my VSC, have been hearing lots of recounts of experiences from instructors and officers, can't wait to go out there to experience them for myself. Worried, nervous, scared, but at the same time, very excited to start my policing journey.

***I'm happy to know that I'm gonna meet a lot of my friends soon..6L gathering, would be rather interesting to get everyone together and see how everyone has changed. Sure, there will be awkwardness but still, I think I'm gonna enjoy it. For Chinese New Year, filled with hope that my sayangs can make it for the visit..miss my weirdos, hazi, SDI gang, merepek gang, FATSSS, seniors especially a certain mangkuk who has been MIA-ing...

***I was blessed with the opportunity to play hockey last week. Man, I missed it so much. Feels so good to know that I can still play and hit, not perfect but it's better than nothing. I feel fit.

***I passed my drill assessment! Thank God. :)

***It's a new season in school. I want to try harder this time. Last night, as I sat waiting for my study adviser, I suddenly felt hopeful, I have no understanding but I was struck with the thought of enjoying my studies and how it can help me do well in my job in future.

***I'm starting to learn Malay again. (whatever peeps, I'm not gonna marry one, or convert to Muslim). Can't wait to understand the language, to speak and write in it. It's our national language, and I can engage others when I need to, rather than feeling left out or all weird and awkward..

Thank you for all the prayers, care and concern. I feel so blessed..:)

I'm exhausted..extremely tired. Okay, so I've been trying to juggle work, studies and VSC training at the same time, it's weighing down on me. I find myself losing motivation to work and to study. Correct that, I simply refused to do my homework, for lack of discipline or that I'm so tired when I reach home, that I just want to rest and relax, engage in some leisure activities. I'm doing fine at work, diligent and prompt..BUT. I find it meaningless. I don't like having to 'cheat' others, typing appealing letters, and doing things that I feel is against my principles. It may be a trivial thing to others, but to me, I feel uncomfortable about it. I know the boss is nice, treats me well and allows me to go off early for trainings without asking for anything in return. I get to see cute riders when they come to register, but that's not a good enough incentive for me.

I miss school, like proper lessons, writing and reading, hanging out with friends and even worrying about school-related stuff. Not that I'm not worried about my current school assignments and all, but it's different. There's no classmates to hang out with, everyone just sits in for a 3-hour long lecture and then, go our separate ways after that. I'm starting to wonder if I made the right choice in enrolling for this degree. Sure, it's interesting, it will look good when I apply for a job next time. Even so, I miss doing proper work, not just multiple choices, fill in the blanks and truth or false, to the extent that I have no idea how to write an essay when I'm required to. Should I try to enrol myself for a course again in NTU/NUS this year?

I need time to think, I need answers. I don't know if it's cos it's almost the time of the month when I get emotional or it's really an issue for me. I know though, it's definitely not nice to be thinking about it each month, trying to convince myself that I'm just PMS-ing, that I should just tolerate this for 3 years, and move on in life. I miss doing community work, doing something more meaningful to benefit the society. If I quit my job, then what about the money? My parents will have to worry about my school fees each month..

I know what I have now is what God has provided for, I remembered praying so hard that I will get to keep my job when my VSC letter came and how despite only seeing my school's advertisement once in the newspaper, I felt strongly about it and went to register. Then why, am I feeling this way? Is it just me? Or that plans has changed? I'm not doubting, I'm just confused..However, I am very sure that I love VSC training, that it's what I want to do, and I'm doing well at it. Thank God for that. Whether or not I can cope with it when I pass out, I'm not sure but I know He will be with me, and I can take it in my stride..

fast and pray...fast and pray...fast and pray...

Happy New Year~!

Okay okay, I haven't been updating....been so caught up with my busy schedule. I passed my IPPT, with silver, must improve on running! Lost 5 pairs of shoes!!! Heartache..bought 2 new pairs to try to recover my loss. Got myself a green adidas jacket too. Oh..did i mention? I've a complete set of uniform now, with my name tag and all, woohoo~!

Will upload pictures soon, check back!:)